Monday, March 6, 2017

Chapter 24-epilogue Metacognitive

Chapters 24-epilogue Metacognitive

In chapter 24 Ruth goes to the church she and her husband owned before he passed away. Despite Ruth’s negative feelings towards the church she gets up in front of everyone and gives a speech. She’s nervous at first and then she realizes its church every one’s very understanding.  “Greetings to the honorable Reverend Reid and the pulpit guests,” she reads in a high pitched breathless voice. “New brown has__” And she stops right away. Whether it's the emotion of the moment or just plain nervousness, it's hard to tell, but mommy has never given a speech before. EVER.” This reminds me of how nervous I got one time when I had to give a speech at my 8th grade graduation. I went to a Lutheran private school my whole life so I felt a little more comfortable giving a speech, but when I got up there I froze. I started to talk again, but then I forgot what I was saying. Lucky everyone was nice about it and told me just to take my time. But anyways instantly when I read that quote I thought of my first time giving a speech in front of a hundred people in a church like Ruth. It very nerve racking. Chapter 25 starts out with Ruth telling her son James where she wants to be buried and about her will when she dies. Ruth and her family also take a trip back to Suffolk where she grew up. While there Ruth got to visit her old friend Frances. She also got to see the Jewish church she spent most her life in. She didn’t pay any attention to it and she got kind of emotion when having to later on in the chapter/ epilogue go into the church. Ruth didn’t want anything to do with her past. She went to a wedding for one of James's Jewish friends. His friend was very fond of her and he needed her there, so she took her daughter and granddaughter. And then after the wedding the book ends with Ruth standing in the rain staring at the church one last time.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Chapters 18,19,20 Metacognative

Consequences Metacognative 
In chapters 18 it talks a lot about the family moving the mom lets the kids choose the boys want to stay in New York, but the girls want to move. The move goes back and fourth between the two and she later decides they are going to move and later in the book she decides they shouldn't move. The mom though out the whole book has had problems making her own decisions they only decisions she made by herself was moving away from her parents which she later regrets. I think she has a hard time making her own decisions out of fear. Growing up her father constantly made her decision for her. She was always having decision made for her based on her religion if it went against her religion she was punished, so it was just easier for her dad to tell her what she's doing. An example of this is when she graduated she asked her dad if she could go to the graduation ceremony, but he said no because it took place inside a christian church. She let her dad make that decision for her out of fear of what might happen if she goes against him. Its hard for her now to make her own decisions. She fears she might make the wrong one and she will have to live with the consequences forever. For example she left her family when her mom needed her most and after she left the rest of her family started going their separate ways and eventually the mom was the only one left. She was sick and needed help and no one was their and later on in the book ( I read ahead) the mother dies and she has to live with the consequence and hurt of living her mom when she needed her most.

Chapter 21, 22, 23 Metacognative

Guilt Metacognative 
In chapters 21, 22, and 23 it mostly talks about Rachel's mom and how she used to be before she got sick. It also briefly talks about Dennis and Rachel's relationship and how they meet when she was working for her Aunt in New York. "She'd wave a live chicken over her head and say to the chicken, " You to death,me to life!" while we'd scream and run away because my father would take the chicken from her and kill it as a blood sacrifice." I think this quote symbolizes and really shows how the mother was not like the dad she was fun and she liked to mess around and the dad was always serious. Rachel feared her father and didn't feel comfortable around him. Rachel's mom made her feel safe and comfortable in her own home in these little moments were she would make a clown of herself. This is sad because later on in the chapter her mom become very sick. Her husband leaves her for another women and her kids leave her because they can't handle living in such a painful and strict household that the dad created. Later on in the book Rachel gets a call from her family and they tell her, her mom has passed away. She felt so much guilt because she remembered these little moments were her mom would cheer her up a little by messing around. She also feels guilty because she was always the one taking care of her mom and she would always translate for her because she couldn't speak English. Rachel loved her mom, but she couldn't stay in that house/ environment anymore because of her dad even though he was gone and out of their lives. These chapters also show us the kind of person the dad was. In the past chapter we saw that he was a horrible father and he was mean to his wife, but I never expected him to cheat on her. This makes me dislike him even more than before. She was sick and her children left her I just really expected her husband to say faithful to her no matter what. I wonder if this is the reason why Rachel feel in love with Dennis. He was nothing like her father he was faithful, loving, caring, family was important to him, he was christian, and he loved his kids he was affectionate to them and he payed attention to them. Rachel's dad never did any of these things. Dennis was also not the same race and I think that's also why Rachel feel in love with him. Her whole life she was disappointed by and ignored by white people and other Jews, but with Dennis and his family she feel welcome and she feels like race and religion don't matter at all.

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Chapters 15,16,17 Metacognative

Foreshadowing Future and Teenage Years Metacognative

Chapter 15 starts out with the mom moving to Virginia after living in New York for a while and going to an all girls school while there. The chapter also starts out with her experiencing her first heartbreak it’s also the first time she starts to realize it’s not socially acceptable and realistic for her to be with this guy. “I went through the entire ordeal and here he was getting busy with somebody else. The fact that he was black and the girl he was marrying was black well, that hurt me even more. If the world were fair, I suppose I would have married him, but there is no way that could happen in Virginia. Not in 1937.”Do you think no a days people are still iffy able inter racial marriages? Is this the start of her going against the norm and rebelling against racial differences. She wanted to marry him, but she couldn’t, but later on she did marry a black man. Do you think she is actually physically attracted to colored men or do you think it’s her way of making a statement and going against societies expectation? Do you think she prefers their way of living and gets along with them better? Chapter 15 also talks a lot about the problem the mom had as a teenager and it kind of relates to problems teen still have today. Like she went through a breakup, she’s deciding she wants to move out of the house, she’s having issues with her dad not treating her mom nicely, she’s graduating high school, and she tells her best friend Ruth everything except about her getting pregnant. “As we approached the church I started to shake and sweat, and just before we reached the church doorway, I stepped out of line. I couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t go inside the church. I my heart I was still a jew.” Is this the start of her thinking about or being in a situation where her Jewish beliefs are tested? Is this a start of her seeing what christianity is about and later becoming a baptist/ christian. She is more scared of being Jewish than anything because she afraid of what her father might do or think. This pushes her away from judaism and toward christianity. Do you think she really wanted to go in the church, but was scared of what her father might do if she did? Do things that our parents force us to do/ believe push us closer or further from them? Does this push us towards being rebellious and doing what we want to do.  In chapter 16 James Mcbride is faced with addiction and he tries to get away from it, but he can’t because it controls his life. Does addiction control our lives? Does it affect those around us? His mother had just lost her husband and is still grieving and James is dealing with addiction, how do you think that makes her feel? Chapter 16 also talks alot about driving and the freedoms of driving. It talks about how the mother used to be a very good driver and loved to drive when she was younger, but she grew to be afraid of it as she got older. Do you think she afraid now because she live in New York and it’s a lot harder to drive their and the people there don’t drive as well as in Illinois where she grew up.

chapters 12,13,14

Pain Metacognative
These chapter talk a lot about loss and the pain after you lose someone.The narrator loses her husband and the author loses his step dad. The narrator gets pregnant with a black mans baby so she has to get an abortion. Not because she wanted to but because she had to for the dads safety, for her safety and for the babies safety if she did have it. In the evening she often sat at the kitchen table completely lost in thought." She's stop in mid-sentence and walk away silently, covering her face." "At night she cried in her bedroom, though she always hid her tears from us. This was after she lost her husband. She had to continue on with her life and be a mother. She had to do her job for her kids benefit even though she was severely upset. The author also had a hard time with this it was they only father he had ever had. His real father died before he was born so he grew up knowing/ feeling his step father was his real father. After his step dad died I feel like that's when he started to rebel. This was his way of dealing with the emotions and sadness he was experiencing. He acted out because he was hurting. His mom was also hurting and probably didn't pay to much attention to him and the other kids. So his rebelling could also be a way of him trying to get her attention and feel like she actually cares about him.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Harlem Renaissance project

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Thursday, February 9, 2017

Chapters 9,10, 11

Trouble Metacognative

"You know, the thing was, I was suppose to be white and "number one," too. That was a big thing in the South. Just because we are white does automatically make us better? Is this still around today? I thinking that in the way that we think we are superior makes us less superior because we are fools to think that. "You're white, even if your a Jew, since you're white you're better than a so-called colored." So, we had to bring other cultures into our problems and make them look bad to because they are automatically superior to colored people without a choice. " well I don't feel number one with nobody but him, and I give a hoot that he's black. He was kind!And good." Is this the start of her being intrigued by colored men? Do you think her bad relationship with her dad has to do with her choice of men. Her dad was always horrible and mean and abusive to her and I think she wanted to find someone completely opposite of her father kind, christian, colored,  makes her feel safe. She loved him for his personality not his color.